Umm... Surgery Can't Come Soon Enough!

Hey guys!

So, things have been pretty boring here for the past week... I don't really have a lot to do not having school or a job. I wish I could do either! But, I'm trying to find things to keep me a little busy... I'm going to be studying Spanish to see if I can test out of the class I had to drop this semester. Wish me luck! I'm going to need it... haha

As far as my back goes, I am waiting on my insurance to approve disc replacement surgery. It takes about a week for that to happen. I have a pretty strong case because I am so young, that it should be approved without too much trouble I hope! After it goes through insurance I just have to schedule it with the surgeons.... Which takes at least 2 weeks! ugh!! I know it's worth the wait... I just wish I was waiting in Salt Lake though, because there is nothing for me to do here. I miss my life there. It was so hard to leave and I can't wait to get back!! I hope everyone is doing well out there. I love you all!

<3 Jess

Discogram... Not as fun as it sounds!

I have decided that I want to start blogging more. I keep reading all of my friends blogs and I just think it's a good idea...

Life has been interesting for me recently. I had to go home from school for a while, because of my back. It's really been hurting again. Today, I had a discogram done... It may sound like fun, but it is far from it! It hurts so bad! Jessica and pain pills do not mix! I just want to vomit... They had me on morphine earlier today and I wish I still had some in me, because I just hurt. The went in and injected some fluid and dye into my discs to regenerate my pain and watch them leak (ouch!). They finally confirmed that I have more than one torn disc. (Last time I had one dr. say it was torn and another said it wasn't.) So, it was nice to find out that everyone was on the same page this time, especially because I don't want to do this procedure ever again! Tomorrow I will go to a doctor in Loveland (it's by Fort Collins) and get an opinion on disc replacement surgery vs. fusion. I was told today that I should think hard about disc replacement, because I am so young it might be the better option. So, I will be thinking hard and praying a lot this week as to what I should do. There's no easy way out. What I choose effects the rest of my life... So, I've got to make the best decision! Please pray for me!!

Life is Good

I've been thinking a lot lately about how great my life is... I am really happy to be where I'm at right now. I'm not dating anyone. I'm not getting straight A's. I'm just living my life the best way I can and I am happy with how it is going. Last year was one of my harder years in life. I had to say goodbye to a lot of people in different ways. Now, when I look back... I'm able to see how much I have learned... And, it is amazing to me how different this year is going. I read an awesome quote the other day... "Today may be the worst day of your life, but tomorrow might be the best." I don't know who said it, but it's something that I have been trying think about more when I'm having a hard time... I am grateful to everyone who has helped me get here. My family is amazing and I have some great friends. And, I know that I may not get to see my friends all of the time anymore... But, they are always there for me and I am just very thankful. Life is good. :)