November 17th 2009

My surgery was finally approved! It took insurance a couple of weeks to decide... I sent them about 100 pages of medical records! The average person only sends 20-30. Can you say lame? They kept asking for more... And, what's sad is that I actually have more than that to send. But, it was all worth it to finally have it here. I am so excited. I feel like this is a dream! I was having nightmares that this day would never come... Most people probably think that nervous would be the better word to describe their feelings about surgery... But, for some reason I'm just not nervous yet. I know that it will hurt really bad for a while... But, I'm just so happy that I'll be getting out of the pain I'm in now that I guess I just know it's the only way. I'm sure the nerves will come right about when they start to put an iv in my arm! That is always the scariest part for me... After that I'm so drugged that I just don't care. I'll be in the hospital 1-3 nights. So, if everyone wants to say a little prayer for me this Tuesday... I would really appreciate it! Thank you everyone for your prayers so far. I am truly grateful! I love you all!

Umm... Surgery Can't Come Soon Enough!

Hey guys!

So, things have been pretty boring here for the past week... I don't really have a lot to do not having school or a job. I wish I could do either! But, I'm trying to find things to keep me a little busy... I'm going to be studying Spanish to see if I can test out of the class I had to drop this semester. Wish me luck! I'm going to need it... haha

As far as my back goes, I am waiting on my insurance to approve disc replacement surgery. It takes about a week for that to happen. I have a pretty strong case because I am so young, that it should be approved without too much trouble I hope! After it goes through insurance I just have to schedule it with the surgeons.... Which takes at least 2 weeks! ugh!! I know it's worth the wait... I just wish I was waiting in Salt Lake though, because there is nothing for me to do here. I miss my life there. It was so hard to leave and I can't wait to get back!! I hope everyone is doing well out there. I love you all!

<3 Jess

Discogram... Not as fun as it sounds!

I have decided that I want to start blogging more. I keep reading all of my friends blogs and I just think it's a good idea...

Life has been interesting for me recently. I had to go home from school for a while, because of my back. It's really been hurting again. Today, I had a discogram done... It may sound like fun, but it is far from it! It hurts so bad! Jessica and pain pills do not mix! I just want to vomit... They had me on morphine earlier today and I wish I still had some in me, because I just hurt. The went in and injected some fluid and dye into my discs to regenerate my pain and watch them leak (ouch!). They finally confirmed that I have more than one torn disc. (Last time I had one dr. say it was torn and another said it wasn't.) So, it was nice to find out that everyone was on the same page this time, especially because I don't want to do this procedure ever again! Tomorrow I will go to a doctor in Loveland (it's by Fort Collins) and get an opinion on disc replacement surgery vs. fusion. I was told today that I should think hard about disc replacement, because I am so young it might be the better option. So, I will be thinking hard and praying a lot this week as to what I should do. There's no easy way out. What I choose effects the rest of my life... So, I've got to make the best decision! Please pray for me!!