People can be so hard read... especially guys. I'm happy to say that I haven't ever cried over a guy. I've had my fair share of watching all of my friends cry that now I just kind of know what to expect I guess... I can give all of my friends advise on guys, but I can't seem to give myself any. I've never been in a serious relationship... I think it's because I'm afraid to get hurt. It's not that I haven't meet guys that aren't good enough to date... It just hasn't ever been right for me. And, I'm picky... really picky... in some ways at least... Plus, the guy has to like you back. If he doesn't, it can most definatly present problems... haha.
Anyway, lately my life with guys is not what I would call the norm. I have a boyfriend who isn't really my boyfriend. I have an awesome best guy friend. I have a guy who is the nicest I have ever met and think is really cool. I have a guy that just left on his mission. And I have that guy who I get in joking fights with all of the time. None of them are actually mine... I don't really believe in claiming a guys as your own, until your actually going out with them. But, that's beyond the point. The point is that I really have no idea what any of these boys think of me. Well, except my best friend... he's like a brother, always there when you need him. I know that I like one of them, but I would never want to risk losing the friendship I have with him. We are at that point, or at least it seems we are... on the point of either being way good and really cool friends, or maybe going out. I'm pretty sure we'll be friends... But, I wish I knew what he was really thinking. It's so hard to tell... Plus, everything seems to be a joke with guys. So, how do you know when they're being serious? I most definatly can't tell. There is also a guy that wrote me a song and sang it to me... Way cool I know! But, is it the friend cool or the I like you cool. My guess is the friend cool.
On top of all of this, one of my best friends just so happens to believe in calling boys. Meaning, any boy that she likes... I can't like. Which is so hard, because we like the same guy... ahhh! Big problem. I'm willing to stop things with the guy, if you can even call it that. But, that doesn't help with the fact that I like him. It's hard... I really wish things weren't this way. It's like I have to choose. Of course I don't think I should I stop liking him, but I don't want to lose her. I hate complication!
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girl, i am in nearly the same situation when it comes to the relationship on the brink of being friend or something more... I just started college and this boy is the opposite of all the boys ive been involved with before: adding more to my interest. I can talk to him and i feel like we have so much in common! but is he serious? i can tell he likes me, but like that...? ugggh i dunno!!! i wanna rip my hair out
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