Stressed...

WARNING: This is very long... But, I really needed to get it out of my system!

nothing is wrong... but, nothing is right. i have been so stressed out recently. i feel like i am just bringing it on myself or something... i'm just not sure at this point. here are the things that i am having a hard time with: school, friends, boys, summer, and family. here are the reasons why:

school: well, i just figured out how to graduate on time! it's going to be very hard... but, it is possible. who would have thought?! i just applied to utah state university. i need to take some online classes from them if i want to get it all done. if i don't get in... well, i can still do it... but, it will be more like 18 credits summer, fall, and spring semester. i'm going for summer 18, fall 16, and spring 18. yes, this is insane.... that is one the reasons behind this post... most people are probably wondering why i would even attempt something so stupid? ... i have an answer: grad school. if i don't graduate in the spring, then i have to put grad school off a whole year and that... well, i just want to be done sooner than later. also, to get into grad school... i have to take the gre. gross! ugh. let me tell you how excited i am.... not! i (hate) standardized tests! so, i already bought a book and flash cards.... and will start studying over spring break. yay!.. needless to say, lots of prayers are being said in hopes that they help the situation.

friends: they have all disappeared. they have dropped off of the face of the earth... i have only one who has proven herself to be true enough to actually hangout with me even though she has a man... and she is getting married in a month. so, i just pray that things will stay the same. i think they will. she hasn't forgotten me yet. :) i just need to expand my friend hangout network...

boys: hmm.... well, some are stupid, some are jerks, and some are great. apparently, i don't get to have any of them. i just get to watch all of my friends live happily ever after instead. maybe it's a good trade off?... let me give you the short version of what is going on in my head about all of them this week... one boy, who i dated has found his love... and is getting married this week. we meet almost a year ago exactly. he was the stupid boy... and i want to know why he gets to find someone before me? the jerk... well, he was very nice to look at and quite the little charmer... but, he is also the player. sweet... then, we have the great guy... and of course he isn't here. his mom started talking to me on facebook today telling me about going to pick him up from his mission though. that was a shocker! i haven't talked to her in a year and a half... it was really weird... neat, but weird. he'll be back in less than 5 months. i can't wait. at the very least, it will be great to have one of my best friends back. at the very most, it will be so nice to have friend with potential back. haha. for now, i just pray i can become who i need to be for whoever i am supposed to be with some day... if there is a some day.

summer: who gets stressed about summer? me... it's coming too fast. i am still waiting to hear if i got the efy job... when i called today, they said they were about 4 weeks behind on when i would hear back. great. the longer i wait, the harder it will be to figure when and what to do with summer classes. so, i'm praying it will all work out... the way it needs to.

family: this is simple. i miss them. a lot. i am so ready for spring break. i am actually looking forward to driving home. i miss home... i'm sure at this point my mom is sick of me calling her all of the time... but, i just need to hear her voice... pretty much any voice... it's the only way i'm surviving. i pray for them all every day. i am so grateful for telephones. i have no idea what i would do without them! life would be horrible... Heavenly Father knew i needed to live now... just so i could have one! haha

anyway...
now you've all read my complaints... (sorry). i thought i'd tell you something uplifting. and that is... that this week is sisterhood week for lambda delta sigma (my sorority). it couldn't have come at a better time... :) the other night i was praying and just telling Heavenly Father... basically everything i just wrote here... and when i was done... i went and read the guiding principle and i was exactly what i needed to hear... an answer to my prayers.

Doctrine and Covenants 68:6
Wherefore, be of good cheer,
and do not fear,
for I the Lord am with you,
and will stand by you,
and ye shall bear record of me,
even Jesus Christ,
that I am the Son of the living God,
that I was, that I am, and that I am to come.